Going Backwards

Lately I've been wallowing in my feelings having a pity party with food and I'm up 3 pounds in spite of working out. Been here before recognize this cave I have fallen in to again time to crawl back out.
Usually there are just food stuffs I don't buy EVER like (brownies, cookies, etc) but lately I have been not only buying them and keeping them in the house for my husband and my son but I have been EATING them too!I keep saying this is the last batch I'm gonna bake and not buy anymore boxes of mix. Where is my will power? My self respect? I wonder since I have resisted for so long... maybe that is why feeling deprived but now I have indulged dare I say over indulged its time to STOP before I regain all the ten pounds I worked so hard to get off my body in the first place this time....ugh....

I swear sometimes I feel like a junk food alcholic instead of a alcholic since I don't drink anymore....I think I would be a full blown alcholic if a friend hadn't intervened in my life back in 1994 when I finally quit for good having gained 40 pounds by then though and the weight did not fall off just because I came to my senses and quit drinking.

Have to stop now and get back to my healthy ways. I wrote this not only for me but in hopes it would help others. I'll keep you posted on my progress or lack there of.Thanks for listening.

February Ramblings

My February so far looks like this:
Feb 1st 3.19miles 48:20 minutes
Feb 2nd 3.14 miles 46:50 minutes for am workout plus weight training1 mile walk outdoors that afternoon
Feb 3rd 3.22 miles 49:04 minutes with afternoon bike ride of 3.2 miles
Feb 4th outside with 8 laps around my park roughly 2 miles plus abs

This week so far
Sun Feb 7th 3.32 miles 49:21 minutes
Mon Feb 8th 3.24 miles 48:01 minutes plus weights and abs
Tue Feb 9th 3.59 miles 55:19 minutes walked 10 minutes extra after my 3 miles
Wed Feb 10th 3.61 miles 54:21 minutes plus ab work

I'm working out as hard as I can and my fitness is improving. I can tell by my jog/run times improving this morning I completed two miles in 28 minutes and I got to the three mile at 41:59-42:00 minutes I was thrilled!

The cold weather is making my knees ache so I am sticking to the one workout a day for now but my time is edging closer to that hour mark which is where I get the weight loss results so we shall see.

Also, I am proud I have stayed out of my afternoon "soda" so far today which is MAJOR for me!

I have one more workout day this week depending on how my knees feel maybe tomorrow or maybe not...How's your February going so far? What are you most proud of ?