Thursday, August 12, 2010

Going Backwards

Lately I've been wallowing in my feelings having a pity party with food and I'm up 3 pounds in spite of working out. Been here before recognize this cave I have fallen in to again time to crawl back out.
Usually there are just food stuffs I don't buy EVER like (brownies, cookies, etc) but lately I have been not only buying them and keeping them in the house for my husband and my son but I have been EATING them too!I keep saying this is the last batch I'm gonna bake and not buy anymore boxes of mix. Where is my will power? My self respect? I wonder since I have resisted for so long... maybe that is why feeling deprived but now I have indulged dare I say over indulged its time to STOP before I regain all the ten pounds I worked so hard to get off my body in the first place this time....ugh....

I swear sometimes I feel like a junk food alcholic instead of a alcholic since I don't drink anymore....I think I would be a full blown alcholic if a friend hadn't intervened in my life back in 1994 when I finally quit for good having gained 40 pounds by then though and the weight did not fall off just because I came to my senses and quit drinking.

Have to stop now and get back to my healthy ways. I wrote this not only for me but in hopes it would help others. I'll keep you posted on my progress or lack there of.Thanks for listening.


  1. I do the same thing! All of a sudden I start buying things that I KNOW I shouldn't!! I rationalize they are for the kids but I KNOW I will be eating them. At least you're recognizing it and doing something about it! Good for you!

  2. I know exactly what you are going through. It can be so tempting to just "buy it!" You can get your focus back - I have faith in you.

  3. Hang in there Susan!! Let's both make this week a great week!