July is going OK nothing to brag about though....back down to 158 this am thank God!
Takin it a little easier no Shred lately just the basics of jog/walk or walk outside when the humidty is down enough and abs of course.
Food has been better cleaner with no binging or eating brownies etc...
Mostly I have been at my computer long hours doing listings since there is a sale on for sellers at eBay to list for free pay only if it sells...thats my life update for now.
How is your July going so far as we head to mid month already?
Showing posts with label weighloss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weighloss. Show all posts
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
The Wagon
Last week I ended up working out 4 days which isn’t too bad just not my usual 5:)
This week so far I ran/walked inside on Sunday 2+ miles, then yesterday I did a easy outdoors walk of two miles with 20 minutes of biking afterwards.
Now I just have to quit baking brownies and buying pies. I don’t know why exactly but when I get in the 150′s I feel nervous or weird about it but I do then I self sabotage. I know most of you reading this can relate all I can say is I am working on it. I fall off the wagaon I get back on the wagon currently back on with a two pound weight gain back to 160:( ugh now I have to relose back down again.
That's it for now till next time....
This week so far I ran/walked inside on Sunday 2+ miles, then yesterday I did a easy outdoors walk of two miles with 20 minutes of biking afterwards.
Now I just have to quit baking brownies and buying pies. I don’t know why exactly but when I get in the 150′s I feel nervous or weird about it but I do then I self sabotage. I know most of you reading this can relate all I can say is I am working on it. I fall off the wagaon I get back on the wagon currently back on with a two pound weight gain back to 160:( ugh now I have to relose back down again.
That's it for now till next time....
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Huffing and Puffing but got it done!
Briefly I did the Shred for the third time this week after having already walked jogged 3 miles so I am pretty tired this evening but proud of my workout week. My clothes feel loser on the lower half hopefully some inches gone around the hips, abs,butt wont know till next Thursday when a new month starts and I do measurements again.
This summer is already starting to fly by..
I was standing at Walmarts in there DVD section today looking to see what other torture I could find and another lady came up looking at the workout DVDs.I asked her if she does any Jillian Michaels stuff she said yes and told me The Shred isn't her hardest DVD that's hard to believe but now I am curious to find out so I may end up getting her other two DVDs. The lady said her No More Trouble Zones was harder and the title to the other video is Banish Fat Boost Metabolism the deadly trio I guess:)
It should be noted that I am not on purpose endorsing Jillian Michaels or her message or her supplements etc. I just needed another trainer to give me a kick in the butt to get out of my comfort zone. I don't especially like her personality especially now that I have let her push me through hard workouts. Also, I think shes dangerously close to being to thin but every body has to make up their own mind and find what works for them just be careful what you pick.
Eating started out good this week then it went down hill and got so-so weight is hanging in there between 157-159. Been getting my 3 veggies in and most days my water my down fall was I gave in to my sweet tooth that was purely stress related.
Its about dinner time here so gotta get going until next time be good:)
This summer is already starting to fly by..
I was standing at Walmarts in there DVD section today looking to see what other torture I could find and another lady came up looking at the workout DVDs.I asked her if she does any Jillian Michaels stuff she said yes and told me The Shred isn't her hardest DVD that's hard to believe but now I am curious to find out so I may end up getting her other two DVDs. The lady said her No More Trouble Zones was harder and the title to the other video is Banish Fat Boost Metabolism the deadly trio I guess:)
It should be noted that I am not on purpose endorsing Jillian Michaels or her message or her supplements etc. I just needed another trainer to give me a kick in the butt to get out of my comfort zone. I don't especially like her personality especially now that I have let her push me through hard workouts. Also, I think shes dangerously close to being to thin but every body has to make up their own mind and find what works for them just be careful what you pick.
Eating started out good this week then it went down hill and got so-so weight is hanging in there between 157-159. Been getting my 3 veggies in and most days my water my down fall was I gave in to my sweet tooth that was purely stress related.
Its about dinner time here so gotta get going until next time be good:)
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Good News
Very quickly just wanted to let you guys know I saw 157.5 on the scale this morning for the first time in I don't remember how many years its been!!!!!
Not really doing anything different that I can think of off hand. I did my cardio last week 4x regularly with one day of the shred and no other weight lifting.
My eating has been OK nothing out of the usual. Who Knows? Does it matter why? how? I got here? Maybe it does so I can keep doing what is working....
Anyway, just wanted to share good news for a change. Any ideas or thoughts to share about this please leave a comment so I know you came by:)
Not really doing anything different that I can think of off hand. I did my cardio last week 4x regularly with one day of the shred and no other weight lifting.
My eating has been OK nothing out of the usual. Who Knows? Does it matter why? how? I got here? Maybe it does so I can keep doing what is working....
Anyway, just wanted to share good news for a change. Any ideas or thoughts to share about this please leave a comment so I know you came by:)
Thursday, April 29, 2010
My Search
I am sharing in the hopes of helping others who are searching for their identity and their birth families lost through adoption. There will be three parts to this post as I think it is the best way to break it down and I'll warn you now there is no happy ending but I am stronger and still standing for having searched. What shapes us inside has a lot to do with our weight and fitness journeys....this is hard to type so wish me luck.
Early Years of my Life:
I grew up knowing that I was adopted. One of my earliest memories is of me saying that I was my daddy's adopted "angel" I am not sure how old I am in that memory but young 5 or 6 ish. I was lucky in that my parents wanted me and loved me and they took very good care of me. I had a great childhood up until I was 11 years old then my mom had a massive stroke that completely changed her personality she was in the hospital for 6 months having to relearn everything walking talking how to feed herself just everything that you and I take for granted.
After she came home she was partially paralyzed and walked with a limp didn't have use of her right arm anymore she was a completely different person and we didn't get along for many years but that is another post. Once I entered my teenage years being adopted meant something different to me. I wandered who do I look like? basic stuff that people who grow up in there biological families take for granted. I began to feel like I didn't fit in my family anymore and this is when I first started to have weight issues. My parents refused to discuss this with me when I was a rebellious teenager. I was scared I would fall in love with my "brother" without knowing it stuff like that.
I got married the first time at 21 and had a baby at almost 25. That was so exciting to finally have someone who looked like me! My son has my heart shaped face and the shape of his fingers and toes and head are mine as well. He is skinny by some fluke:)
The Search
Skipping ahead to when I turned 40 being adopted and not knowing about my biology really began to bother me a lot not just when by birthday rolled around. I made the decision to search for my birth family. It seemed so easy with the advent of the Internet but it was not easy at all the more I looked for my birth mom the more painful it became to see that no one was looking for me. About this time life got in the way with home life, job, my mom getting sick so I had to stop for a few years.
Then in 2007 I paid the Children's Home Society 500.00 for my non-id information and to search for her and to let her know I was open to contact. Florida is a closed adoption state and my adoption was handled through this agency so they hold all the answers just so you know the process. The agency sent me paper work to fill out and have notarized and then they had to look in the archives for my information. It took three long weeks to get my non-id information back. Every day while I was waiting I would rush out to the mailbox hoping for "the letter" Finally it arrived and I had some basic information like nationality, where I get my height a little bit about her family, not much at all about the birth family just some really vague information about him his physical characteristics education etc.
The Results:
Once I got the non-id I had to call my searcher and give the go ahead to contact her. The agency sent her a letter around Christmas time that year and there was no answer. So they sent her another more strongly worded letter and my birth mom called and spoke with my searcher.
My birth mom was upset at having been "found" after all these years she said she felt her rights had been violated. In 1964 she was told by the social worker to forget about me to forget that she had given birth. They were cruel to the birth moms back then I think. Back to my story, my searcher explained that I needed updated medical information for health reasons and if she wouldn't give them to her I could sue her to get her to disclose this information so she reluctantly gave me the information I needed and it was shocking! (You have to try to prepare yourself for whatever you may find out)
Even though the info was shocking it helped me to make sense of my life issues. My birth moms mom was a alcholic who committed suicide the year after I was born. My birth mom herself had a hysterectomy at 26 due to cervical cancer, she has been married three times. I don't know if I have siblings but I hope I do:) Her dad died of lung cancer but was a heavy smoker and I don't smoke never have or drink anymore I quit back in 1994 before it got completely out of control. I fell in love with a alcholic though....those are the some of the shocking highlights though if you have questions email me at susanc7818@yahoo.com
Even though I have let this drop for now its not over and it will never be over until one of us dies. In my heart I keep hoping she will change her mind and contact me though the agency. My searcher said due to her age she was 60 and life circumstances she hasn't told her family now that I exist that is probably why she wasn't open to contact.
I don't regret the search it was some of the best money I ever spent.... I may try again I'm not going away!! I am strong, resilient with a great support system.. I hope this helps someone out there please let me know if it does or contact me with questions....til later.
Early Years of my Life:
I grew up knowing that I was adopted. One of my earliest memories is of me saying that I was my daddy's adopted "angel" I am not sure how old I am in that memory but young 5 or 6 ish. I was lucky in that my parents wanted me and loved me and they took very good care of me. I had a great childhood up until I was 11 years old then my mom had a massive stroke that completely changed her personality she was in the hospital for 6 months having to relearn everything walking talking how to feed herself just everything that you and I take for granted.
After she came home she was partially paralyzed and walked with a limp didn't have use of her right arm anymore she was a completely different person and we didn't get along for many years but that is another post. Once I entered my teenage years being adopted meant something different to me. I wandered who do I look like? basic stuff that people who grow up in there biological families take for granted. I began to feel like I didn't fit in my family anymore and this is when I first started to have weight issues. My parents refused to discuss this with me when I was a rebellious teenager. I was scared I would fall in love with my "brother" without knowing it stuff like that.
I got married the first time at 21 and had a baby at almost 25. That was so exciting to finally have someone who looked like me! My son has my heart shaped face and the shape of his fingers and toes and head are mine as well. He is skinny by some fluke:)
The Search
Skipping ahead to when I turned 40 being adopted and not knowing about my biology really began to bother me a lot not just when by birthday rolled around. I made the decision to search for my birth family. It seemed so easy with the advent of the Internet but it was not easy at all the more I looked for my birth mom the more painful it became to see that no one was looking for me. About this time life got in the way with home life, job, my mom getting sick so I had to stop for a few years.
Then in 2007 I paid the Children's Home Society 500.00 for my non-id information and to search for her and to let her know I was open to contact. Florida is a closed adoption state and my adoption was handled through this agency so they hold all the answers just so you know the process. The agency sent me paper work to fill out and have notarized and then they had to look in the archives for my information. It took three long weeks to get my non-id information back. Every day while I was waiting I would rush out to the mailbox hoping for "the letter" Finally it arrived and I had some basic information like nationality, where I get my height a little bit about her family, not much at all about the birth family just some really vague information about him his physical characteristics education etc.
The Results:
Once I got the non-id I had to call my searcher and give the go ahead to contact her. The agency sent her a letter around Christmas time that year and there was no answer. So they sent her another more strongly worded letter and my birth mom called and spoke with my searcher.
My birth mom was upset at having been "found" after all these years she said she felt her rights had been violated. In 1964 she was told by the social worker to forget about me to forget that she had given birth. They were cruel to the birth moms back then I think. Back to my story, my searcher explained that I needed updated medical information for health reasons and if she wouldn't give them to her I could sue her to get her to disclose this information so she reluctantly gave me the information I needed and it was shocking! (You have to try to prepare yourself for whatever you may find out)
Even though the info was shocking it helped me to make sense of my life issues. My birth moms mom was a alcholic who committed suicide the year after I was born. My birth mom herself had a hysterectomy at 26 due to cervical cancer, she has been married three times. I don't know if I have siblings but I hope I do:) Her dad died of lung cancer but was a heavy smoker and I don't smoke never have or drink anymore I quit back in 1994 before it got completely out of control. I fell in love with a alcholic though....those are the some of the shocking highlights though if you have questions email me at susanc7818@yahoo.com
Even though I have let this drop for now its not over and it will never be over until one of us dies. In my heart I keep hoping she will change her mind and contact me though the agency. My searcher said due to her age she was 60 and life circumstances she hasn't told her family now that I exist that is probably why she wasn't open to contact.
I don't regret the search it was some of the best money I ever spent.... I may try again I'm not going away!! I am strong, resilient with a great support system.. I hope this helps someone out there please let me know if it does or contact me with questions....til later.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
If Its Not Broke Don't Fix It!
This morning I am hovering right at 160! So close to finally getting back down to my original weight loss weight of 157. I may lose down to 148-150. For a healthy BMI my weight need to be at 155 just five pounds from here.
When I am feeling non-depressed I exercise in the normal range so I have cut back the amount of cardio I was doing to "normal" amounts and it is working. Just 35-45 minutes 5 days a week it feels good to not be a slave to exercise!
I've been lifting weights two times a week lately along with trying to flatten my abs down further 3x a week. I'm beginning to think the only way to get them flatter will be to get a tummy tuck and I read on a blog how painful that is plus you have to self pay:(
Been doing yard work lately, plus I find I'm not hibernating as much all this to say my depression seems to be in check!!!!!!!!
My rose garden is going to be outstanding this year and yes I will take pictures to show you guys. I have one bush right now with over 20 blooms fixing to open:)
Its time to get breakfast and get a move on my day till next time ...............
When I am feeling non-depressed I exercise in the normal range so I have cut back the amount of cardio I was doing to "normal" amounts and it is working. Just 35-45 minutes 5 days a week it feels good to not be a slave to exercise!
I've been lifting weights two times a week lately along with trying to flatten my abs down further 3x a week. I'm beginning to think the only way to get them flatter will be to get a tummy tuck and I read on a blog how painful that is plus you have to self pay:(
Been doing yard work lately, plus I find I'm not hibernating as much all this to say my depression seems to be in check!!!!!!!!
My rose garden is going to be outstanding this year and yes I will take pictures to show you guys. I have one bush right now with over 20 blooms fixing to open:)
Its time to get breakfast and get a move on my day till next time ...............
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Week In Reveiw
It was the week of the headaches.Five days this last week I have had sinus pain and today I had a whopper of a migraine come on this morning I took something for it right away and it knocked me out for a while but at least the pain is gone and no sinus pain to take its place thank God.
I worked out 5 days this last week Mon-Fri but I cut my mileage and time way down it was a easy week which I needed after a hard month last month.I completed not quite 13 miles down from a high of 18 last month. Most days just 35 minutes yesterday was an hour in the morning I felt better but went down hill yesterday afternoon.
Believe it or not I am down another 1/2 pound so far I really may see the 150's by the end of this month I'm crossing my fingers.
Here's hoping no more headaches of any kind. Have a great weekend. Its sunny and mild here so I may go for a stroll to enjoy some sun and a little exercise!
I worked out 5 days this last week Mon-Fri but I cut my mileage and time way down it was a easy week which I needed after a hard month last month.I completed not quite 13 miles down from a high of 18 last month. Most days just 35 minutes yesterday was an hour in the morning I felt better but went down hill yesterday afternoon.
Believe it or not I am down another 1/2 pound so far I really may see the 150's by the end of this month I'm crossing my fingers.
Here's hoping no more headaches of any kind. Have a great weekend. Its sunny and mild here so I may go for a stroll to enjoy some sun and a little exercise!
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